WaNDeR.. WoNDeR..

old enough to know better, young enough not to care... happy birthday to me haha.

phases of transition are always interesting, challenging and sometimes even very demanding... moving back to switzerland after one year new york city turns out to be a little more draining than i first thought, or at least the challenges i am facing go a little deeper than expected...
it feels good to return, good to be back, but the feeling of settling back in has not yet kicked in, and i kinda doubt it will. why? things change, characters evolve and preferences shift...

in the end, i am moving back to a known place, yet there's many things i need to start from scratch. it's a weird mixture, feeling like a tourist with a massive deja-vu...

leaving the rushing new yorker lifestyle behind me, spending a couple of wobbly days in switzerland, i escaped the decision-making and settling in and traded swiss home with a tent on the island of paros on greece for 3 weeks... a complete different setting!

here i am, chilling and relaxing, feeling on hold - the quiet static heated air of after the new york storm and before the swiss storm...
impatient, but yet not ready to get started somehow, i enjoy this time being to concentrate on what i want and where i want things to go after this, carefully pondering about my steps and reconsidering certain habits...

in times like these, it is precious to find inner balance, to find distance and space to sort things out, before jumping into all the mix of old and new...
i am curious to get started, though, as new beginnings leave one more open-minded than ever when processed correctly...

no new beginning without an ending...